Day 42 S-366-LYDoG:
Today was a strange mixture of good, bad and downright ugly. I started off the day knowing full well that I had overdone it yesterday and that I’d be paying the price today. As promised, my body rebelled and thoroughly put me in my place. Knowing that I would be adding day 42 to the blog this evening, I felt discouraged. To be honest, not much about the day seemed good at all this morning. I went on several crying jags in between my various responsibilities. I was feeling lost and lonely, add that to extreme pain and fatigue and you can imagine the drama that was seeping out of my eyes every few moments.
Everything I did today seemed to go wrong … EVERYTHING!
Of course, that was the perspective I had from my exhausted point of view. However, this afternoon, I had a great experience. I had made an appointment with an academic advisor for the college that I would like to attend. Now, keep in mind that I have been feeling lost about what I’m meant to do with with this astrophysics degree I feel so inclined to work toward. In my heart of hearts I’ve always wanted to do some kind of research or observational astronomy but, let’s face it, I’m no spring chicken. So going into this meeting I was feeling a little less than enthusiastic about what she might say to me.
On the drive I just kept praying, “Father, please help me to find direction and purpose. Help me to know what I’m meant to be doing.” I walked into her office and, at first, I wasn’t quite sure where to begin. So I kind of jumped in at the middle and made a muddled mess of things. She was very patient and has a fantastic sense of humor so that by the end of the conversation we were great friends. She was telling me that, in short, because of my GPA they would snatch me up into their honors program. Then she assured me that, no matter my age, there was definitely a place for me in their graduate program
Let’s just say that by the time I left her office I was feeling a wonderful combination of elation and peace. I’m so thankful for the turnabout my day did today. I really was feeling pretty low and yet now I feel on top of the world. I think I finally know what I’m going to be when I grow up! I might even have the opportunity to go work for NASA! *squeal*
I may be 80 by the time I get there, but hey, I think I might actually get there. Just think, I’ll probably be the coolest grandma in town.